PETER Andre was so devastated after the loss of his brother that he quit his reality show because he kept breaking down in tears.
The dad of four, 48, starred in Peter Andre: My Life from 2009 to 2014 alongside his older kids Junior, 15, and Princess, 13, and wife Emily, 31.
Cameras followed the Mysterious Girl singer in the aftermath of his divorce from Junior and Princess’ mum Katie Price.
His oldest kids rewatched the old series with him for his current YouTube series, Life With The Andres.
“It really was amazing reliving those incredible moments. I’m really enjoying the YouTube vlogs and they’re something fun we can do as a family,” he wrote in his regular new! column.
“I often get asked why I stopped filming our reality show when it was doing so well and I guess there were a number of factors, the main one being when I lost my brother Andrew in 2012.
“Even though ITV were very kind to give me a month off filming, when I went to film again I was constantly breaking down and I realised it was time to take a long break from doing the show.”
The final two season of the series saw Peter help his brother through treatment for kidney cancer.
But even after taking a break from filming Peter decided he could not continue after the eighth series and called time on ITV show in 2013.
The 47-year-old‘s sibling lost his battle with kidney cancer in 2012, with Peter regularly posting tributes to his brother saying, “I think about you every day”.
He was left devastated by the 54-year-old’s untimely passing and begged his wife Emily to leave him as he battled depression in the aftermath.
The singer bravely opened up about his mental health battle last year, revealing he has been on and off medication and in therapy ever since.
Peter explained: “I told Emily: ‘You can either stay and stick with me through this, which I personally wouldn’t, or you can go.’
“And she said: ‘It’s not even a question, we are going to get through it together’.”
Andrew passed away from kidney cancer in December 2012 after a 10-month battle with the illness, a spokesperson said at the time: “Peter is devastated. He was very, very close to his brother.
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“This is the very first family member Peter has experienced losing. He just needs time to grieve.”
It was thought that Andrew had been responding well to treatment before his health deteriorated in November, with a family friend confirming that “everyone was with him when he passed away”, adding: “There wasn’t one waking minute when he wasn’t with somebody.”
Peter previously said of his brother’s diagnosis: “I was horrified, so shocked, and I broke down.
“The tears were just rolling down my face and I’ve cried every day since.”